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_{allegedly spawned sometime in the late 90s}just your friendly local cognitohazard with supervillain origins.. nothing to see here... ΘΔ &꩜
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ganja, gaming, oddities, sci-fi + horror, girl bands, sad poetry, cutesy manga, violent anime, binge-watching the same tv shows over and over again, all things science/medical, bugs, mushrooms, foraging, outer space, cryptids, non-white witchcraft, cooking/baking, the majority of Gaia's creatures but especially dogs, collecting rocks + toys + tchotchkes_{VIDEO GAMES}
minecraft, stardew valley, animal crossing, the sims, toontown, skyrim, NITW, 7 days to die, left4dead 2, splatoon, GTA V, no man's sky, cozy grove, abiotic factor, terraria, tomodachi life, peak, alan wake, deltarune, TTRPGs, etc.

_FAQI'm confused. What is going on here??
I am actually a We. That means there's more than one of us rolling around inside this body / brain of ours! We have a Complex Dissociative Disorder (CDD) related to also having (C)PTSD.Basically: we've been through a lot in our lives over the last few decades, and our mind split to bits as a result. We've had to learn how to react, adapt, and soup around, as we say, in order to best survive whatever life threw our way.It's honestly taken a while to get to this point. There was a lot of denial and dysregulation at first, but embracing this plural existence of ours was truly the best thing we could have done and almost necessary to begin our healing. We were really struggling before as a single being and function infinitely better now as several, even with all the chaos that comes with.As the adage goes: if it ain't broke, don't fix it.◇So you're fully aware of one another?! How?
Yes! That happens sometimes; likely more often than most people would care to believe. Every experience is different, of course, but self-awareness is a lot more common than what's portrayed in media about dissociative disorders.We personally do NOT experience the stereotypical "full switches" seen in films, where one part/person enters front as another exits, and then has no memory of anything prior. That is just a single experience. We remain very aware of one another, and yet none of us are seemingly able to "fully take control".We use what's commonly referred to as internal communication to "pass notes" to each other in our head, and work together to get our needs met. It usually doesn't show on the outside; our voice and mannerisms won't abruptly shift. If you were to speak to us or see us out and about, you'd probably never suspect what kind of chaos is bubbling just below the surface.How are we able to do this? A lack of amnesiac barriers between us all. In medical DID terms, this is called integration. More casually, healthy / functional multiplicity / plurality. What word to use depends on who (within who) you ask.◇So what is YOUR "plural experience"?
We are several consciousnesses stuffed into a single vessel; sharing time, space, and a brain. We have varying ages, appearances, preferences, abilities, (special) interests, personal identities, and more !There's one main guy who's pretty much always around, and others who freely come and go. Some more often and/or for longer than others. Who shows up and for how long is generally determined by what is currently going on in the physical world. The more stress, the greater likelihood for somebody to appear (to help).We generally share awareness, some memories, and bodily control (albeit limited). We may crave different music or foods. Certain preferences or skills may wane. Emotions might become heightened. We also tend to blend and blur together to become a collaborative brain soup, hence the name. In this state, verbalizing things can become overwhelming and we may need to switch to nonverbal communication.We can experience varying degrees of shared existence -- from co-consciousness (sharing awareness) to co-fronting (sharing control) to passive influence (emotional intrusions). Sometimes there's just observation, no words.Some compare it to being in a van or going on a road trip with friends/family. There is a designated driver, a co-pilot (or two), and the rest of the passengers; a lot of variables and potential for chaos. There are also bound to be some "backseat drivers", affecting the overall vibes of the space, but it won't change things substantially. Roles won't change for an individual's wants, only for the collective need.

◇What is a "system"?
Pretty much what it sounds like; multiple elements that work together to function as a whole, but instead of physical mechanics (EX. gears), it's different consciousnesses working together as members of the ultimate Union.Some systems are multiple, as in separate people, while some still feel plural but gravitate more towards terms like median, which generally means less independence or separation between members. Some are a mix of things, which just happens to be how we roll.. And some don't identify as systems at all.

◇Are there preferred terms to use? And others that should be avoided?
That definitely varies per system. We personally prefer the term headmates to alters, but use both and parts and even more joke-y nicknames like brain buddies as well. We, however, do not use "personality" because it does not accurately represent our experiences. Personality = who you are, not what you are.If talking about us as a group, we will most often use the term system, but also collective or hivemind, depending on the vibe at the time. The same goes for being multiple / plural. It truly depends on how medical and serious versus funny we want to be when explaining.FYI: We don't mind being spoken to as if we are a single entity, but acknowledgement of our condition is still mandatory! This is our reality and pretending it isn't helps none of us.◇"Ultimate therapy goal" implies you're professionally diagnosed and not self-dx?
Yes, we are blessed to have a therapist with knowledge and experience surrounding DID / OSDD. We understand firsthand just how difficult it is to access quality mental healthcare for it, as it took us forever to find her!!! Which is why we refuse to judge people who self-dx. It's what we did, and we ended up being correct.BUT it shouldn't matter..Nobody is owed access to another's medical history and diagnoses anyways. They're often used against patients, so some therapists even keep it "off the record" for their own protection. A diagnosis code does not a disorder make.◇So if you're pro self-dx, are you pro ___?
We are pro being true to yourself, whatever that means and however that may be expressed. If nobody is harmed, then what is the issue? If they're willing to be wrong, what is the harm? Nobody should be told how to exist "properly", but everybody should be believed when it comes to the labels they use for themselves.We are pro good faith self ID and pro self-dx. We are supportive of all system types and origins. We are anti anti endo. System discourse is boring! Let people exist.Life is hard enough as it is, is it not?

◇How many of you are there (total)?
These days we tend to focus on the few who feel most tethered to the body and/or are most currently active. Within that group, there is a smaller bunch we dub our "frequent flyers".Totally? There are over 20 of us at the moment. Sound like a lot? Oh, we know. The key fact to remember here though is that they are not always active and never all at the same time.It's generally two fronting at a time, sometimes three. It's rarely, if ever, been more than that.◇Does everybody have their own name? Are they assigned or chosen or pre-existing?
Most of us show up with names and interests already "pre-downloaded", while others have to discover it for themselves along the way. You could compare it to the trans experience of choosing your own name, even down to using the same baby or OC name websites.I don't think we could ever "assign" a name because that takes away all autonomy.. And obviously we have no need to intervene (yet) because the names chosen have been spot on.◇Do you all have individual roles / tasks?
Not all of us have a distinct role in the system, but we do try to look out for each other whenever we can. I guess you could say we're all protectors of a sort, which makes sense.Examples of some roles:
• Core - basically the body
• Host / Primary - the "main" conductor
• Gatekeeper - helps control switching, sharing of memories, logical decisions, etc
• Caretaker - parental unit that helps look after our physical body / mental health
• Protector - like a bodyguard
• Persecutor - "evil alter" (often a traumatized protector hurting themselves / others)
• Troublemaker - chaos bringer (neg)
• Companion - neutral third party
• Little - child self (<10)
• Middle - child self (10+)
• Fragment - a piece of a puzzle lacking autonomy / separateness / sentience
• Introject - based on an original source (EX. books, tv shows, OCs, people you know)
• Spiritual Tether - connection to religion
• Sexual Alter - safeguard for sexual acts◇Do you have a public list of everybody?
We do. And we don't mind sharing it. Some systems do, because obviously it's very private.As it says in the bio, "this is not everybody but it is a lot of us". A lot are / will forever be privated.This is a vulnerable thing for us to do but we choose to do it because we want to be understood better. And this could maybe help!◇Is it okay to ask to speak with someone in particular? Even if they're "dormant"?
If we're good friends and you'd like a message relayed forward, with no guarantee of a quick response, then we'd be happy to oblige! None of us are the most social of creatures but we try.Fun fact: while casual summoning doesn't often work to get certain minds to stir, music / special interests definitely do. Play the right song, or mention the right topic, and then wait...◇Does everybody have their own social media accounts? Where can I find them?
Very few of us have actual, distinct accounts, and that's mostly because there's not a strong desire to socialize that way. Those interested do happen to be those most tethered, for whatever that's worth. The links are included in the mini profiles within our public listing, shared above.◇Do your friends and family know?
We're pretty open about our experiences online, but definitely more covert IRL as a safety precaution. The majority of our friends know and/or are systems themselves, so it's not much of an issue. Our family is aware of some things and not others, but are overall very supportive of us. It goes without saying, but we would appreciate the upmost privacy on the matter.◇How did you know? Were there signs?
A lot of dissociation. Some depersonalization and derealization episodes. Panic attacks. Inner voices that talked back when spoken to. Feeling like somebody else. Resonating with plural terms and others' experiences / testimonies.Eventually we discussed things with our therapist, and she helped test us to confirm it. This included filling out forms and answering questions for something called the MID-60. We aced it, obviously. And now here we are..◇What is the best/worst thing about DID? The funniest? The weirdest? The cringiest?
Best = never being left alone again
Worst = not having our own bodies
Funniest = ordering food and then vanishing
Weirdest = one word: werewolves. or sex
Cringiest = the inability to pass by a toy store without buying something◇How does having differing genders and sexualities affect things, like dating?
Gender can be really confusing as a system! We used to identify as genderfluid before realizing we were actually experiencing multiple genders as multiple people. We still relate to the term, but now it's affected by varying forces. We are collectively trans and queer, with the exception of maybe a single cishet fellow. A good majority of us identify as female or feminine, and most of us are also lesbian or sapphic in some regard, but feelings can and often do shift depending on who is present.
_{EX. Lesbian -> Bisexual -> Gay -> Straight}Dating has always been a very challenging ordeal, and truthfully it's worse now with DID. Dating with trauma is hard, dating with trauma and living trauma responses feels harder. Navigating dating apps feels impossible. Funny how you can be so many and still be so lonely. If only we had answers, because we do want to date! We just need "practice" and to figure out our boundaries with ourselves + partner(s). In an ideal world, we would date separately in a beautiful polyamorous/sexual way. But alas.◇How does being disabled affect things?
These days we have more sporadic flare ups / attacks, so it could affect any of us at any time. Heat and stress and low blood sugar are our main triggers, so we try to monitor those things as a team because it affects all of us. We all feel it, but some of us more than others.Our neurodiversity varies slightly per individual; some of us are more easily social, some more depressed, and some more psychotic than the others. However, if one of us is X, then more than likely we’re ALL going to be X some way.◇How does sobriety / veganism affect things?
You need COMPROMISE!!!The body / host has been vegan for 10+ years and while it's mostly morals-related, we have to actively agree not to sneak non-vegan snacks in case we have some kind of physical reaction (as has happened before). We compromise by consuming vegan versions of our cravings.Our collective sobriety takes a little more continuous effort on all sides of things. Some of us yearn for a casual beer or cigarette, but it's too slippery a slope. We have been sober from alcohol for 4+ years and currently only smoke cannabis, but even that isn't for all of us. We know our own limits and how to hold ourselves accountable. Teamwork makes the dream work!◇What are the meanings of ΘΔ / & ?
"ΘΔ" = theta delta, which symbolize therianthropy. Surprise! Besides us being more than one, we're also less than human. Generally canine in nature, among other things.The "&" symbol is a neat little addition for when referring to your plural pals! It can help imply you're talking to multiple at once without having to significantly change your grammar / speech.Example: I&, you&, we&, they&, etc.◇If you've reached this point and you're still confused, or just wanting to learn more, we recommend watching this interview or this documentary. We also have a collection resources (links) and are willing to share them.Have a question not yet answered? Ask us!

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_{FREQUENT FLYERS}🐶 C L E O - host with the most
🧸/🦐 s m i d g e - little guy
👒 H E L E N - maternal figure
🖤 C A S S I O P E I A - sad girl
😼 L U K A S - goofy goober💥 J E Y D O N - the grouch
🪲 R O W A N - extroverted introvert
😈 B L I T Z K R I E G - "evil alter"
🐞 A B B Y - introverted extrovert
🎠 S O P H I E - crazy girl
🍑 W I N O N A - dream gf꩜
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